Wow, time flies.  I can’t believe little Dillon is 2 months old!  His check up isn’t for another week, so I’ll have to update his stats then!  But this little HUGE booger is growing stronger every day.  He loves standing on our legs and trying to push off.  His grins are the best and he wants to giggle so badly.  I think he will do it in the next week or 2.  It’s amazing how much more into things he is…you can tell when he is studying something.  It’s also cool how the simplest thing to us is so new and interesting to him, you really have to appreciate the simple things with babies.  He is a great sleeper, but the stretches aren’t consistent yet.  The first one is always the longest but it is anywhere from 5-8 hours.  Then the next stretch goes down from there.  But getting up for only 1 feeding has been awesome!  We are looking forward to seeing his personality develop, we think he is going to be a ham 🙂

This past month was probably the hardest month of my life.  No one warns you about the first 6-8 weeks of having a newborn and how you are going to feel as a new mom.  I’m so happy to say that we’ve turned the corner and things are going great now!  So to other new moms out there, hang in there, it may not seem like it, but things will get better, the first few weeks are temporary…I didn’t believe it at the time, but it’s true.

Now…I have to be honest…I am now taking Zoloft.  I was embarrassed when I first took it, but quickly realized, it was the right thing to do.  The way I had been feeling for 6 weeks…well…I didn’t like it, and guess what, I don’t have to feel like that!  I would encourage any mother to be honest with her doctor about how she’s feeling because even if you don’t feel depressed, you could have a form of post-partum depression.  That’s what confused me, I didn’t feel depressed, but I was feeling very overwhelmed, had anxiety about the long hours alone, and couldn’t sleep.  It is not in my personality to worry about things and not be able to control how I’m feeling, so I knew something was out of whack.  After talking with the OB, I felt so much better and relieved.  She made me feel even better when she told me she had experienced PPD with her 3rd child, so she knew exactly how I felt and assured me it was beyond my control and not to be embarrassed.  After 2 weeks of taking medicine, I feel great, confident, and am having a blast with my baby!